Just Say NO

I have finally realized that it is not just a fleeting moment, or the need to not look like I can't do what I say I will do, but I have truly learned how to say No and mean it.  Yesterday, AGAIN, there were Deweys cupcakes brought to work.  As soon as they came back to the breakroom I was finishing up lunch and decided to just go back to my desk.  Then later that afternoon I went back to the breakroom thinking that all of the cupcakes would be gone only to find a whole dozen still back there.  I got my apple out of my lunch bag and stood right beside the box of cupcakes and started cutting up the apple and thought, "I truly do not want one of those things."  You have to understand what a HUGE milestone this is for me.  As I have said before, there is nothing on this earth that I would rather eat than Deweys cake.  It absolutely is my favorite food.  To be able to stand right beside a whole box of cupcakes and eat an apple is truly an accomplishment that I am extremely proud of.  After I finished my apple, I left the breakroom not thinking twice about those cupcakes.  I got back on the scales today (since Thursday has become my weigh in day) and guess what......I have lost 3 more lbs.  This brings my total weight loss to 40 lbs. now!  All of the cupcakes, cake squares, burgers and fries, and junk food that I have given up over the past 3 months has truly been worth it.  Today I feel like food no longer has control over me.  That doesn't mean that I will always feel this way but today I do and it feels so good.  A good friend of mine has committed to help me reach a goal of losing 60 lbs. before my surgery.  That means I have 20 more lbs. to go in 5 1/2 weeks.  For once in my life I believe that I can do it.  It started today with a really tuff workout in the gym.  But even after that workout where I thought I was going to die, I feel great.  I have more energy than ever. What can I say......it has been a great day where food is concerned!