Exhausting & exhilirating week

It has been an exhausting and an exhilirating week all in the same.  On Monday I cleaned out my closet and my drawers and got rid of ALL of the clothes that were to big for me, which entailed getting rid of every peice of clothing I owned (except for undergarments).  I was very nervous to do that because my brain just kept thinking that "I might need those clothes one day."  Although my heart was telling me that I would never need them again.  Once I got them all bagged up and in my car (to take to a friend), it was the most exhilirating feeling.  I actually felt like I had been reborn.  Then I started hanging up all the clothes that I had been given over the last couple of months and seperating what I can wear now to what I will be able to shrink in to.  It felt really great.  So everyday this week I have been wearing clothes that actually fit me instead of clothes that look like a potato sack hanging on me.  It feels really good to be wearing clothes that actually look good on me.  It's funny because ever since I have been wearing these clothes that fit, so many people have told me how good I look.  I just don't see it yet though.  I mean yes, I see that I look better than I used to but when I look at myself I still see a fat girl.  "Fat" has been embedded in my brain for the last 40 years and I just wonder how long it will take to undue that damage.  I have also been trying to get prepared to move my son to Ohio this week.  We will be taking him to college tomorrow and I am just totally exhausted from preparing for this.  Not to mention, we found major trouble with my car this week and had to put it in the shop.  Luckily it is still under warranty so that is a blessing.  It is just frustrating knowing that we need it to go to Ohio this weekend.  Anyway, the Lord will work it all out.  So on to weight loss.  I am totally amazed but when I stepped on the scale this morning (because I forgot to weigh in yesterday with everything I have going on), I had lost 6 lbs. since last Wednesday.  I absolutely could not believe it.  My average each week has been 2 or 3 lbs.  I was totally shocked when I saw 275.  This truly makes me so happy.  I have only been back to the gym 1 time in the last 2 weeks.  This is something that I am really struggling with because I am just so tired that I don't feel like I have the energy to go.  But I have got to get back down there to start doing some toning!  So my total weigh loss now is 109 lbs.  AMAZING and I feel GREAT!!!!!