Exhausted

It's been a crazy week and a half.  I took my son off to college in Ohio and I started a new job.  I have so little energy.  I know it is from all the stress I have been through over the last week and a half.  But I will make it through this!  The new job is going good so far.  All settled in my new office!  My son is doing good.  He is getting into the swing of things and settling in.I am going to weigh in tomorrow.  Last week I lost 2 lbs. so we will see what this week brings.  Wished I had more to talk about but I'm to tired!  :)

Super hard weekend

This weekend was extremely hard.  We took our son up to Ohio where he will be going to college.  It was very hard to leave him but even harder to come back home and see he wasn't here.  I still have moments where I will just break down and start crying but I know that God will give me strength to get through this.  I know he will be fine but I still miss him.  On another note, I have uploaded a recent picture (as promised several weeks ago - sorry it took me so long).  This picture is of me 109 lbs. down from my original weight.  You can scroll down and see my original picture from February of this year before any weightloss (384 lbs.) and really see the difference from now (275 lbs.).  If you receive this post by e-mail, please visit the actual blogsite so that you can see the pictures!  I was really amazed myself.  You just don't see yourself in person like you do in a picture.  Notice in the picture how much "bigger" the door behind me is getting!  This starts a new week for me.  My last week at my current job and saying goodbye to everyone there.  I am sure it will be hard as well (especially since I am super emotional from my son going away) but I am looking forward to what God has in store for me.  I will weigh in on Wednesday and let you all know how I did then.

Exhausting & exhilirating week

It has been an exhausting and an exhilirating week all in the same.  On Monday I cleaned out my closet and my drawers and got rid of ALL of the clothes that were to big for me, which entailed getting rid of every peice of clothing I owned (except for undergarments).  I was very nervous to do that because my brain just kept thinking that "I might need those clothes one day."  Although my heart was telling me that I would never need them again.  Once I got them all bagged up and in my car (to take to a friend), it was the most exhilirating feeling.  I actually felt like I had been reborn.  Then I started hanging up all the clothes that I had been given over the last couple of months and seperating what I can wear now to what I will be able to shrink in to.  It felt really great.  So everyday this week I have been wearing clothes that actually fit me instead of clothes that look like a potato sack hanging on me.  It feels really good to be wearing clothes that actually look good on me.  It's funny because ever since I have been wearing these clothes that fit, so many people have told me how good I look.  I just don't see it yet though.  I mean yes, I see that I look better than I used to but when I look at myself I still see a fat girl.  "Fat" has been embedded in my brain for the last 40 years and I just wonder how long it will take to undue that damage.  I have also been trying to get prepared to move my son to Ohio this week.  We will be taking him to college tomorrow and I am just totally exhausted from preparing for this.  Not to mention, we found major trouble with my car this week and had to put it in the shop.  Luckily it is still under warranty so that is a blessing.  It is just frustrating knowing that we need it to go to Ohio this weekend.  Anyway, the Lord will work it all out.  So on to weight loss.  I am totally amazed but when I stepped on the scale this morning (because I forgot to weigh in yesterday with everything I have going on), I had lost 6 lbs. since last Wednesday.  I absolutely could not believe it.  My average each week has been 2 or 3 lbs.  I was totally shocked when I saw 275.  This truly makes me so happy.  I have only been back to the gym 1 time in the last 2 weeks.  This is something that I am really struggling with because I am just so tired that I don't feel like I have the energy to go.  But I have got to get back down there to start doing some toning!  So my total weigh loss now is 109 lbs.  AMAZING and I feel GREAT!!!!!

New clothes

I was able to attend the annual Hanes sale this morning and racked up on clothes for me to wear to work (even cheaper than Goodwill).  I filled a trash bag completely full (stuff almost busting open) and only paid $64 for the entire bag.  I can't wait to get it home tonight and go through it all again!  I weighed in this morning also.....3 more lbs. down which puts me at 281.  I will be glad to see the 270's!  Other big news........I got a new job!  Same company but moving up to a management position!  I am nervous and excited all at the same time!  I know God has big plans for me though!

I did it!!!!!

I finally did it!  I hit the 100 lb. weight loss mark!  I just thanked God when I saw 284 on the scale.....I mean 284 on the dot....not 284.2 or whatever........I have lost 100 pounds.  I can't believe it.  I am now half way through my journey.  I want to loose 100 more pounds to reach my goal but 1 pound at a time.  This is such an encouragement to me.  I am going to the gym today to celebrate!  I will post pictures later (probably this weekend) so that you all can see the difference in 384 and 284.  Just can't contain my happiness!