Sorry for the delay since the last post

I can't believe that I have let 2 weeks go by with no post....I am sorry for that!  I have been so extremely busy in the past couple of weeks that I haven't even thought about posting to my blog.  So let me catch you up to speed.  I weighed in this morning and I am down to 293.  Yes....I'm in the 200's again!  That makes a total of 91 lbs. that I have lost since my journey began and a total of 26 lbs. since my surgery (5 weeks ago).  Last week was my biggest weigh in since my surgery with a loss of 6 lbs. in 1 week.  That got me super excited because I was a little discouraged up to then.  Each week before that I had lost 2 or 3 lbs. a week which is really great and I should be super excited about that but for some reason I felt let down.  Trust me....this surgery has really played tricks with my mind.  On July 4th I had a pretty bad day.  I just had an emotional breakdown.  I was crying hysterically, very weak feeling, and just having major regrets for having the surgery at all.  This only lasted a few hours but it was still very bad.  So when I weighed in on Wednesday (2 days after this episode), and I saw a 6 lb. weight loss it completely removed any bad thoughts that I had been having.  As far as how I have been doing physically, I find it still hard to get enough protein in each day.  If I don't get enough protein in, of course I feel weak and loss of energy.  Some days everything I eat doesn't agree with me and somedays everything I eat is wonderful.  It is truly a rollercoaster ride and one which requires LOTS of patience.  That is something that I have very little of.  I would ask that you all help me pray for my patience in this.  The hardest thing about all of this is the mental part.  Even though your body does not desire food at all, your mind still does.  When you sit down to a meal with your family and you see all the yummy stuff that they are eating and you can't, it really does affect you mentally.  It is very difficult to deal with.  The experts (those who have been through this surgery already) have told me that it gets easier and easier as time goes by.  I am looking forward to that.  I started back to work full-time this week.  This has been a challenge too.  My goal was to also start back to the gym everyday, but that hasn't happened yet.  I do have a very good reason for it though.  We had hardwood floors put in our home yesterday and up until then my gym stuff was buried under the contents of 3 closets.  I am slowly starting to get my house back together.  If I complete that task tonight then I will get my gym things together and head back tomorrow.  I know that once I start going back to the gym I will definitely see an increase in my weightloss.  Plus with 91 lbs. weightloss, you can imagine that I have got to start doing some toning.  Anyway, I have established very small goals which makes them very acheivable.  My goal right now is to get in the gym the last 2 days of this week.  My other goal is to see a 100 lb. weightloss.  That is only 9 lbs. away so I am hoping to see that in the next couple of weeks.  I go for my first post op visit tomorrow with my surgeon and I have a list of questions for him.  I think that has pretty much caught you all up to speed.  I promise not to wait so long until my next post.  Pictures to come soon.  I hope you all noticed the 2 I have already posted.  The first one was right before I started losing any weight.  The second was right before surgery and I had a 65 lb. weightloss there.  As soon as I hit that 100 lb. mark, I will have more pics for you!  Will you all also help me pray for a dear friends daughter who is about to embark on this journey through the lapband!  Love to you all!