Lesson learned

I've been doing so well that yesterday I decided to try something new....a piece of pizza.  I had been craving some pizza for a while so we ordered one for lunch.  We got a thin crust pizza with ham on it.  I ate 2 very very small pieces first (when I say very very small, I am talking a piece about the size of a 1/2 dollar).  I ate them very slowly and I did fine with it.  Then later on in the day, I was going to get ready to go out and grabbed another small slice and ate it as I was going down the hall to get ready.  I put absolutely no thought into eating it slowly or taking small bites and after I swallowed the last bite I began to hurt.  I could feel the food stuck in my esophagus.  This hurt so bad and made me so nauseated.  This went on for about 30 mins.  Then it finally passed through to my stomach.  I honestly thought I was dying.  I couldn't breathe good, I felt pressure in my chest, and I just knew I was going to throw up.  This is all the things I had read about and heard about would happen if I tried to eat to fast or didn't chew my food good.  I felt so stupid for doing this to myself.  The rest of the night I was nauseated and had a pain in my stomach.  I can definitely tell you that I will not try that again.  I am feeling much better today but am back to feeling scared to eat anything.  I never want to go through that again.  I am sure that won't be the last time I ever do anything like that but I pray that I don't.  I definitely learned a lesson from it.  All the things they taught me before surgery is very important to incorporate into my daily life where food is concerned.  My life is forever changed due to this surgery and I just have to get my head around that.  I guess because I feel so good and normal again that I forget how my life has changed.  To bad I had to learn the hard way!