6 more days

I am definitely on the down hill stretch.  After a very productive weekend this past weekend, cheating big time on this 3 week pre-surgery diet, and realizing that in less than a week not only will I turn 40 but I will be having my surgery, I have many emotions running through my head right now.  I had several things on a "to do" list that I wanted to get done here at the house before my surgery.  All of those have been checked off.  My body is feeling the aches and pain from all the hard work but it was well worth it.  By Thursday night of last week, I had had all of the chicken, broccoli, carrots and green beans that I could take.  So I decided that I had to have something different.  What did a choose?  A cheeseburger from McDonalds.  It was so good.  I also stole 3 french fries from my boys.  Even though it was just a regular cheeseburger I was completely satisfied.  Then, Friday I did good.  On Saturday, another craving hit me like a ton of bricks.  I had my husband take me to Hardees for breakfast (my favorite fast food breakfast place).  I ordered a biscuit and gravy combo with a regular coke.  I also ordered a sausage biscuit.  I ate about 1/2 of the biscuit and gravy and hash rounds and all but a couple of bites of the sausage biscuit.  I took one sip of the coke and couldn't hardly stand it because it was so sweet.  That food was so good.  I enjoyed every single bite of it!  Then on Sunday I got the craving of a milkshake from Cook Out.  My precious husband went out and got me and the kids (and himself) a milkshake.  I ate the whole thing!  Last but not least, my husband ordered pizza from Dominoes last night.  I wasn't going to eat any because I had just had a protein shake.  The smell overcome me though.  I ended up having 2 slices of pizza.  It was so good but boy did it give me heartburn.  So all of my cravings have been met and I do not feel the least bit guilty.  I had been depriving myself of these things for so long and I just couldn't take it anymore.  I am dreading weighing this week because I feel like I will probably gain some of my weight back.  If I do, that is ok.  I won't be mad at myself.  But I'm hoping I don't.  Then today I realized that I only have 5 days until I turn 40 and 6 days until my surgery.  I never realized the day would get here so fast.  Back in January, June 6 seemed like such a long ways away.  But I can honestly say that it went by very quickly!  I will be posting another picture this weekend of my "before surgery but down 60 lbs." size.  I am so ready for this surgery.  Mentally, physically, emotionally and I am so ready to turn 40. I know a lot of people dread turning 40 but I don't.  It will be a huge milestone in my life that I will always be able to look back on and remember the change I made at this age.  I will let you all know on Thursday what I weighed in at!  Until then I ask that you say a prayer for me and my upcoming surgery.