1 step forward, 2 steps back

Today has been a great day on one hand, but on the other a very disappointing day.  As you all know by now, Thursdays are my weigh in days.  I get on the scale this morning having accepted the fact that I would have either stayed the same weight or gained weight.  I say this because of this past weekend how I had so much junk food to eat trying to get it all in before D-day on Monday.  However when I stepped on the scale this morning, I realized that it said 330.  I got off and back on it 3 more times and sure enough every time it was 330.  That means I had lost 8 lbs. since last Thursday.  That brings my total weight loss to 54 lbs.  I guess all this starving I have been doing this week has paid off.  Then later on today I received a call from the surgeons office telling me that my surgery had been approved but that Chris's was denied.  They have denied his surgery because they say that he has to be on my insurance for 3 consecutive years before he is eligible for this benefit.  The doctors office did not know that this change had been made with our insurance.  I got so upset.  Chris happened to be down in the gym.  I went down there and got him and took him outside.  I just busted out crying because I knew how disappointed he was going to be.  Needless to say he took it way better than I thought he would.  The battle is not over though.  I have contacted a few people to see if this can be overrode and the nutritionist also said she was going to work on it as well.  I am believing God that He will bring this to light and we are praying for his will to be done.  If this is not his will for Chris at this time, we can deal with that.  I thank God for giving me the strength to get through these last 4 days.  Each day is getting easier and easier for me.  I still find myself being hungry however, I am not sitting around thinking about eating.  That is totally God.  I am probalby not getting much more than 700 calories a day if that so there is no reason I should not be sitting around every minute thinking about eating.  I can do all things through Christ which stengtheneth me and he has certainly given me the strength to get through this.  So my earlier post about it is harder than I expected is no longer true.  It is definitely getting easier day by day!