Peanut Butter

If you know me well enough, you know that I love peanut butter more than anything.  I would take a peanut butter pie or some peanut butter balls any day over anything chocolate.  As I think back to when this journey started I don't think I have had any peanut butter.  Although peanut butter is great for protein, it is kind of high in fat.  Even the low fat is a little high in fat.  So I have tried to avoid it altogether.  Well today when I got home from work the thought of a peanut butter and jelly sandwich hit me like a ton of bricks.  I started thinking about how good it would be to have one and I just couldn't get it off my mind.  I got on the computer and looked up the nutritional value in peanut butter and jelly.  I saw that 1 tbsp. of Jif peanut butter (my favorite) has 16 grams of fat and 1 tbsp. of Welch's grape jelly has 13 grams of sugar (no fat though).  I knew that I had the calories left for the remainder of the day that I could pull 1 sandwich off but did I want to waste them all on just 1 sandwich.  I knew it wouldn't last me until I went to bed and that I would be hungry again.  So I settled to go with my original idea for supper - soup and a sandwich.  I go into the kitchen and start my supper and I just had to do it.  I had to have a spoonful of peanut butter.  I dug my teaspoon down into the jar and pulled out a heaping serving (probably about 1 1/2 tsp. worth).  I said (outloud)..."I have got to have a spoonful of this."  So in my mouth it goes and I was in total bliss.  I was just umm'ing and ahh'ing and even said (outloud) "this is the best stuff in the world."  I think next to Dewey's cake, it's my favorite thing in the world.  I finished off the peanut butter then finished putting my supper together.  So here I sit, full and satisfied, and super glad that I didn't give in to temptation.  Oh yeah....and 1 tsp. did the job....it satisfied my temptation.  I'm learning little by little that food does not have to control me....that I can control it!  :)